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Aynn's Paths. The herStory that used to be a great memory of life.
the moment she let her tear rolls, that's the moment she actualy needs him.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
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5:14 AM
i got no one close, that i really trust. no one.
cos i had lost the person long way back in 2008.
so fuck life. im getting a hell bored of the way my life is heading to.
nbcb.
no. nothing to look forward to. 24 feb this year, i bet would be the worst day ever.
2009 start wasn't as great as i thought it would be.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
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11:17 PM
dear, i dint mean to hurt u in any way. i love you, i do.
i went breaks with them,with no intention. not at all. i knew, i told u i will be good as for 2009 and beyond. but i dint xpect u to be extremely angry when i went break with them. i actually do not want to. but i did went down with a rule saying ok, i want to be back after 5 minutes.
i love you only dear, no one else. see jie sheng, i love u fucking much.
i feel sad. i really do.. why must our rship b of so low profile? i can't place ur name here and there. i dont mind pictures, but if name, why not? i dun mean to tell everyone all around the world about us as u dun like it, i respect u... but as a woman myself, i do feel the urge to tell ppl how happy m i..with u dear... i cant even hold ur hands anymore, hugs, kisses, they are getting lesser.
i dunno what caused ur changed, but i want u, im dying for u. i tried to be strong in any way, to live without you, but i simply cant. let me feel the love that u used to give me dear..
im sorry if i made u angry in any way, but i want to be like other woman too. let me be kay...
sometimes i just need a time alone;
but when i grab the opportunity to be alone, i will cry...thinking about u..simply you...i dun wan to let you go...even if i have to..i dont want..
dear, dun let these issues to be a matter in our rship.
i tried being strong, for this time being. i told myself, if u r able to go thru a year with a shit attitude of mine, why not me? i will dear..be as strong and stand tall for our rship. i will. i swear i will protect it..
i will dear, go thru any pain to get the old you. i swear i will.
i still remember how nice you were to me previously..
- u send me home every now and then, even if its the last train, u make sure i safely reach home, u even took taxi home
- u went down to my place when i got drunk for the fiesta at esplanade
- u kept calling me 24/7 when i dint contact u for the day, u were worried,
- u treat me anything i want and get me anything i need,
- u pay for my phone
- u be my pillar of strengths when i encountered problems(i cried and you stood by me 24/7)
- u tried making me to love you in many ways
- on and on,
BUT THE MOST MEMORABLE ONE WAS WHEN U HOLD ME TIGHT AND KISS ME, SAYING"HOW I WISH WE COULD BE TOGETHER FOREVER..."
but dear, wat happened now?
dear, i will get the old u back. i knew its my fault to read ur personal stuffs, to know ur flaws, but even if it was like that, i still love you.
forgive me for loving you damn much... )':
Saturday, December 27, 2008
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11:53 PM
im feeling rather sick as boyfren is away.
well, i went out only once when bf was away which is with my outside frens. even with that i dint ton for sure cos i felt like im missing bf way too much.
bf, i hoppe this is ur last trip overseas. im sick and tired of being left alone in spore.
fucklah, wth changed my bf.
i hope i'll get my palm on ur fucking face soon!
i want my bf to turn like he used to be.
fuck bitches.
dun flirt with my bf!!!!!!!
ahhh....whatever lah.
Monday, December 22, 2008
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9:21 AM
hati(heart)says: aku dah bosan(im sick of everything). all da way things still appear to be the same.meh lah. aku start hidup baru. (nevermind lah, let me start anew)
aynn: fuck lah. get urself up first bodoh!
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9:21 AM
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8:14 AM
BITCH! IF U THINK ITS COOL TO HAVE A BOYFREN AND STILL FLIRT WITH MY BOYFREN, I HOPE U WILL HAVE A HELL FUC*ING LIFE!and bf, dun entertain her!
im tired of feeling hurt all the time.
im serious.
i am.
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Tuesday, November 18, 2008
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12:05 AM
i wish u knew what i mean. i have been trying my best to take care of ur heart, to always love you, to sacrifice everything for you, abandoning every single things i have beside me just to make you know that you are really being loved by me.
i knew i had done many uncountable mistakes in the past, but well, i have improved just because of you, and u can't even ssee that and appreciate?
i cried each day and night knowing that as each days passed, i am actually counting down the days i left to be with you..how hurt can i be? u seemed not to think of me anymore, and i kept trying to hold u back when you actually wanted to go.. i felt bad to hold you back, but i have no choice. i love you too much, and i felt as if i am killing my own life when i actually think of leaving you..
why dun we separate last time? why must it be now? what's my mistakes to prove that i am a bad girlfren to u? what have i done to receive all these in return?
i wish u knew what i mean. life is now a piece of shit.
you taught me how to love; how can i forget you?
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